Letters To The Sky

Dear Mia,

There are days where I dream about sneaking back into your life without the management of your mom, the only problem is that you are too young for me to do that and if I wait until you are older, I feel like I would have lost so much time.
I also dream about handing you the stack of these letters and I can hardly hold in the tears the force themselves through my guard.

Love

Your Father

Letters To The Sky

Dear Mia,

There are times when I want to give up, because its much easier that way, but I know I cannot, no matter how tempting it is to lay down and surrender to the world. But, I also know in this life, I’ll forever be myself, I’ll forever be poor man, even if I accumulate wealth, because I am missing you, and without you my life is cold and desolate.

love,

your father

Letters To The Sky

Dear Mia,

I am building my life on a ridged, jagged frame, using the fractured, broken pieces I have poorly secured. This is the foundation, you are having your life built on; baby girl, I am so ashamed that I have placed you in such a disadvantaged. You are against the world, and you will be the one to repair the abhorrent world I have given you. Hopefully, you will be able to reach for so much more and the challenges in the poorly built world and family will only make you stronger.

 Love,

 Your Father

Letters To The Sky

I saw the movie La La Land and I was surprised to see that she happened to have the same name as you. It was cute and made me think of putting you in acting and singing classes.

More importantly, it insisted some feelings, complex ones, that I didn’t really understand, and I wanted to say something to my girlfriend who was tired from work, but each time I went to speak, I couldn’t really find the right words to say. Both tired, I walked her to her front door some time around midnight, and I hugged her so tightly, as if I was going into battle and may never see her again (Today was my last weekend before school starts again). Not only that but we were talking about things that made me feel faltered and insecure. sometimes I get the feeling like we may not last and we will just end up being friends.

Life is just complex and sometimes you’ll lose someone you love without losing the hopes and the dreams and the aspirations and, most importantly, the love that came with them. 

Love,

Your Father

Letters To The Sky

Dear Mia,

I am not a perfect person; I know I am a fool. And sometimes I want to go to a place that I could imagine a home to be, I just want a reprieve from all of this pain and suffering I am enduring, a small chance to make it into life and to bring you with me. But I know that will never be the case, so I am fighting with such voracity, until I am broken. But even when I feel broken and shattered and I cannot handle the pain, I wince and move on and endure until something is done and I can push through this bullshit.

I am not going to stop, even if the gods smite me, and in the end hopefully everything will mean something.

 

Love,

Your Father

Letters To The Sky

Dear Mia,

It is seen in the natural world, that animals will kill their children for survival, especially, if it is not in the fittest conditions, not only that, but if an alpha lion joins a new pride it will kill the young from the past alpha male in order to give the most resources to the future cubs that will be his.

This is survival of the fittest, and I think that this is an important concept. It is also important to note that people do not do this, I certainly would never do this. The only mention this because I am concerned that I am not with you at all times, I, certainly, am doing everything I can for you, but I feel a devout guilt that I am not with you at all times of the day, singing and reading and playing with you.

 

Love,

Your Father

Letters To The Sky

Dear Mia,

Be yourself baby girl, don’t change who you are for someone else, let them love you for the person you strive to be, and be in a relationship because you know they will make you a better person. I had to learn the hard way, and I changed myself as much as I could to make another person happy, but in the end, I was unhappy and the relationship I struggled so hard to build came crashing down. If it wasn’t meant to be, then it was not meant to be and forcing the pieces to work will never be the substitute for the actual pieces.

 

Love,

Your Father