I feel bad because I was not strong enough to hold this family together. I feel obligated to make things work with your mother to give you a normal family–although, I must say I no longer understand what a normal family is–; however, I do not think that will would work together, and I am not sure how it would effect you and your psychology. Most children would want their parents to stay together, but sometimes I don’t think they’d understand living in a resentful household. I just want you to know I want what’s best for you, and although I have rules and may enforce punitive actions against poor behavior and make my own human mistakes, it is best intentioned. God Help me.